love after valentines day

after valentines day i did a lot of thinking. . . i really miss the feeling of being in love. i dont know why but this past few months i buried myself in work maybe so as to forget the heartaches that i've had in my life. i have come to the conclusion or accepted that i already may have lost the love of my life. "you can never teach a guy to love you the way you want to be loved... you have to wait for him to do it in his own way, in his own time... that's the saddest part of being a girl... but you can never teach a girl to love the guy back the way she did before if she already grew tired and fed up understanding and waiting to be appreciated and loved the way she deserves to be loved... thats the saddest part of being an insensitive man." how i wish i could Just turn back timE and i know the tuRn back Time and i know that things would be really different. i had this really huge crush on a friend of mine when i was in college and i remember we really talked a lot and stuff and with some stroke of luck we bumped into each other again after how many years. we talked and talked and talked. finally she asked me how my life is and i asked her about hers also and in the end she confided that her marriage was falling apart and she wants out. i made me wonder if i was brave enough before and pursued her would i have been able to make her happier? should i even entertain those kind of thoughts? i believe that the girl that i really loved before has started to hate me already and who would want to be in a relationship where your partner hates you? :( is it time that i realized that i deserved to be loved more? that i should be in a relationship where my partner truly loves me? i realy dont know as of the moment i guess we Just havE to let time take its couRse and leTs see what happens. but what if the girl that i should be with is with someone else? what should should i do? should i try to win her? should i just rather go back and work my ass off??? should i be a knight in shining armor ready to rescue the damsel in distress? i believe it takes a lot to make a relationship work and love alone is not enough. everybody deserves to be happy. is it even possible for a married woman to be in love with another guy? and what is the best gauge to know if that woman truly loves that guy and is not just a rebound guy? i know that right woman is out there waiting for me i Just havE to be bold enough and appRoach her and The rest will just happen. . .